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I am starting to lose my senses. I would probably one day not be able to taste anything at all. Wow, I sounded like a drama. Well, I do like some drama to be honest, to make my life sounded rather 'larger than life'. But this is no funny matter, it is real. I have been facing some weird circumstances since like 2 years ago, or 1 and a half years ago. There were many instances that water will flow from my nose when I bow down a little or tilt my head. The worst is when ruku' during solat, the weird water will flow smoothly and onto my lips straightaway giving the mighty salty taste in my mouth. The smell is like iron (besi), supposedly blood smells like iron but this is no blood. And this is no 'hingus' as well. This water that flow is as thin as normal plain water, no sticky yucky slimy mucus thing. So today, I made a pot of tea. Milk tea to be precise. I was known to be one of the best tea/coffee maker in the house (LOL yeah I am boasting, masuk bakul angka...

Hari ketiga. Ohemji, banyak betul godaan, tapi aku agak berjaya sebab takdelah rasa lapar sangat atau masuk angin gila2 ke apa. Hari ni macam chill je, mungkin badan aku dah mula nak biasakan diri terseksa macam ni mwahaha. Manakan tidak, kuih favorite aku sume tak boleh makan, rindu bukan kepalang kat nona manis, putu piring, nak makan croissant lah, burger lah, cake lah, sushi lah astaghfirullahal'azim. Nafsu, ini semua nafsu! So hari ni aku makan ayam goreng untuk breakfast, ayam goreng + kuah dal sayur untuk lunch, kacang badam untuk snek dan malam minum la susu lowfat. Pastu eksaited sangat nak timbang, poof...berat aku tak berubah langsung dari 3 hari lepas. Sedih tapi takmau daku berputus asa. Kita akan tengok hujung minggu nanti.

I almost died! Lolz. Seksa betul diet ni. Part makan tu ok je sebenarnya tapi part yang badan masuk angin tu yang tak tahannn. Sampai rasa blocked dekat tekak tapi sendawa tak nak keluar. Can you imagine?! Breakfast tadi makan sebiji telur rebus dengan setengah bungkus kacang Malaysia Airlines. Lunch makan 4 ketul ikan sambal, 4 ketul tauhu goreng, sayur pucuk ubi masak apa taktau, dan juga beberapa hiris timun. Snek petang tadi dalam pukul 4, habiskan kacang setengah bungkus tadi dan minum Lemon+Ginger tea without sugar. But the best part is sekarang pukul 6.16 petang tapi aku masih rasa kenyang. Taktau lah kenyang kembung angin ke atau memang badan aku adapt dengan powernya. Ok so itu update hari kedua aku. Hopefully dapat tahan sampai malam ni, esok dan seterusnya sampai 10 haribulan. Ganbatte to myself!

Ohohoiii... Hari ni start balik kurangkan makan. (dah berapa puluh kali start balik ni aduhai). Plan ialah takmau makan karbohidrat, takmau makan gula (air manis, dessert, kuih dan sebagainya) dan jugak takmau makan buah (sebab buah ada simple sugar). So, plan diet aku ni nak testing untuk lebih kurang 2 minggu saja. Because it is intense as hell. Gila tak makan karbohidrat dan buah? So it is not a very good diet that could be done in a prolonged time.  So far belum rasa terseksa lagi, mungkin sebab baru tengah hari. I am expecting weekdays at work would be much easier sebab tidak ada anasir-anasir rumah yang suka tengok aku makan dan ajak aku makan. Cuma yang tak berapa bestnye, ada jugaklah dah 'cheat' sikit iaitu makan sesudu nasi goreng (sebab kakak ugut kalau tak makan langsung nasi tu dia pun taknak makan) dan juga dah minum setengah sedut jus nenas yang mama beli tadi (ni seriously sebab tak nak menyesal, Dulu pernah tak nak makan aiskrim time baba nak b...

When you marry a woman, marry her for lifetime. If you see another younger woman and get attracted to her be it for whatever reason, please think back and remember the woman that spent decades with you, sleeping next to you everyday, carry your child in her womb for I don't know how many times. Think of the periods in her lifetime that she spent to take care of your babies, of how she battled between life and death in the labor room. She's the one that carrying all the impact after marrying you. She might be forgetful after each childbirth and might not look as good as a young girl now but all that she's willing to sacrifice when she chose to marry you. Of course she might not be an angel back then that thought about everything that I've stated above but just think this; she married you because she loves you. She stayed with you because she still do, and because somehow, you're everything in her life. If after you have had this thought in your head, but still you ...

Opinions are hard to come by. It is really up to you whether to share it or not. Sometimes the best way to deal life is to stay silent and ignore every stupidity. But really, it differs for everyone. Sometimes I will share opinions that are not pleasing to the ears or eyes. And it is always opposing majority. Yeah, I share the ones that opposing majority to leave a message that it is perfectly fine to be different, to think differently and have your own mind. You don't have to be following the entire herd if you don't believe in the course they fight for. If you have facts to support your opinions, will be even better. The key is to gain broader knowledge and deeper understanding of the issue matters. Be it health related, recipes (red velvet for example), public interests, religious, ecology and biodiversity, and whatnot. It is really okay to be different. It is best if you do it with good manners (this is 99.9% directed at my own self because when I get overwhelmed it is not ...

I will love you if you loved me. That is me, typically. But not all the time. We need to 'click' in order to achieve that. I guess it's the basic spark thingy. If you feel a thunderous spark with me, and magically I find you agreeable, yes. That's it. We'll magically gravitate to each other. If you feel the spark while I don't, and you start to force your existence into my life, no. I will erase myself from you because being me, I need to be comfortably sufficient by my own company but at the same time, wish to have you as someone that brings more joy and complements my life. You must have your own life and not 24/7 swooning over one person as though kita macam belangkas. If I feel the spark and you don't, I know it will just ends up me watching you from afar. I won't have that much courage to force my existence into your life because being typically me, I will be super awkward+unnecessarily nervous when you're around that either you will think...